Wow! What a hard week! Heck, it’s been a crazy week! Some days I honestly don’t think my emotions can handle anymore. But then I surprise myself. After a night time workout, I exploded and had my breakdown.

I felt like I couldn’t give anything more. Feeling exhausted mentally, physically, and emotionally felt like the new norm. I was dealing with a lot, had a major project to complete, and an even bigger project looming in the distance. All that didn’t seem to matter anymore. In the wake of what happened in Las Vegas, I was falling apart. Even though I didn’t know anyone attending the concert, I don’t think that even matters. For any carefree, music-loving individual, what happened was devastating.

I’ve been to Las Vegas a few times and even stayed at Mandalay Bay. In the summer, going to outdoor concerts is a fun thing to do. And thankfully, I’ve been fortunate enough to not have experienced something so tragic. But the fact that it can happen scares the crap out of me. Over the past few days, so many questions have run through my head but I have no answers. All I can do is tell my loved ones how much I love them and give them all the support I can.

After my workout, I hit my last mental straw. My husband and I did a 45-minute kickboxing workout. It’s one of my favorites because the music gets you amped and the moves make you feel like a fighter. When you’re done, your sweating buckets. There’s even a few tracks that leave you breathless. As an asthmatic, I’m huffing and puffing and breathing out of my ears. It’s oh, so worth it but then the tears come.

I could have cried my eyes out for days at that point. With each passing year, I get more comfortable with my emotions and now I cry at least or twice a day. It’s quick and over in an instant, and is so helpful. Keeping those emotions bottled up is never a good thing. It’s not only harmful for your mindset, it can cause physical damage too. In the wake of what was happening during this hard week, I let all those tears out. But it’s not the most fun thing to do.

With everything happening, it would have been considered normal to not leave my house for awhile. But that’s an option and definitely not healthy. What was the best thing to do was to talk to someone. Asking for help is never a bad thing. Especially when you’re feeling defeat. It actually is one of the best thing you can do for yourself. Think of it as self-care.

So I want to encourage you to practice some self-care. Particularly when you have a hard week. Schedule that therapy appointment you’ve been putting off. Go for walk. Read your favorite book. Whatever it is, take care of you this week, and every week.